Feeling Better

I have given up soda and I feel so much better. I started doing small exercises to get started.

Food 9-17-09

• 12 oz of Sweet Tea
• 1 Fiber One Bar
• 12 oz of Pepsi
• 12 oz of Pepsi
• 2 servings of chips
• 1 pudding cup
• 12 oz of Pepsi
• 1 Fiber 1 Bar

oops

did so well on tuesday but on wednesday forgot to keep track of food, gotta do it today and from now on so i can get this weight off i know i would feel better if it was gone. well i hope i will feel better, i know some of it will never go away but maybe physically i will feel better

Food 9-16-09

• 16 oz of Pepsi
• 3 small pancakes w/margerine
• 16 oz of Pepsi
• 2 Fiber One Bars Oats w/Pb
• 16 oz of Pepsi

Food 9-15-09

• 2 Pepsi Max
• 1 bowl of Total Raisin Bran
• 1 Fiber One Oats and PB bar
• 1 20 oz bottle of H2O
• 1/4 glass of Sweet Tea
• Ham on Wheat Bread w/Honey Mustard
• 1 20 oz bottle of H2O
• 1 Fiber One Oats and PB bar
• 2 16 oz glasses of Sweet Tea
• 15 Triple Meat Pizza Rolls

9-15-09

Not sure how to get going. I spend every day lost I want to do things but most of them involve my foot and my toe can't take anything right now. I am gonna start a new blog just to keep track of what I eat maybe that will help me get kick started.

slowly

my foot is still hurting but I'm not going to just sit here anymore, I'm going to do 3 reps of 15 with my thighmaster

hump day

Nathen's grandma wrote me a letter and basically told me she thinks i'm a horrible person, I had to take a xanax yesterday and I think I will today as well.

lost

i really feel lost anymore, i don't know what to do or how to start anything all i want to do is sleep anymore. i'm sleeping over 15 hours a day and i'm still tired, if i try to sleep less i'm even more tired. i need to start walking again, maybe that will help with this feeling

Stress

I haven't posted in awhile, but stress is a constant companion. Nathen's grandma came for a visit and oh my dad gets his kidney and she gets mad cause dad's more important to everyone. She made one comment after another about my weight. Told Nathen that she hopes he finds someone new before he makes they mistake of marrying me, said I would leave him. She is just mad because we are happy. She doesn't like anyone, and isn't happy unless she is the center of everyone's world.
Dad got the call on Saturday night to be on standby. Sunday morning they called and said come to St. Louis. He had the surgery and all is going great, he will be coming home today. Most people when they receive a kidney transplant need to stay in the hospital for 12-14 days. My dad is a little bit of and overacheiver. Well not really he is just in really good health.
School starts in a week. Worried about making sure they have everything.
Nathen was supposed to go back to work on August 10, now the new date is August 24. Hope it doesn't change again cause we are hurting, making it but now extras. That is bad with school starting and the car needing to be tuned up, along with new front tires.
Well enough venting.

No Motivation

I have had no motivation lately. I fell about a week ago and did nothing for that week. Worked hard on Saturday and it felt good. Unable to do much today raining off and on. The only thing I'm gonna get done is some laundry. Woopee! How fun, but it must be done.

Thursday

Well its another day and while I'm not being perfect about all this I am trying. I can't wait to be in town that way I can walk and feel like I can do stuff.

Middle of the Week

Here it is the middle of the week and I still haven't done anything. No excuses today the weather is going to be great. I don't know what I will do but I'm going to do it outside. I have to do this for me, if I don't feel good about me I will never get out of this funk.

Bad Day

Well I didn't do anything yesterday. It was a bad day, can't let it get me again, I have to workout if I want to feel better. Going to take a walk this afternoon. I'm hoping it will warm up or at least the sun will come out.

weekend

well on saturday we walked up and down commercial street window shopping then went to the big easter egg hunt walked and stood around for about 2 hours. that was fun. woke up sick on sunday all i could do to get to church. walked around the arena watching the kids hunt eggs. then lost control almost at my aunts for easter dinner. but i'm going hiking for firewood again tonight so i will make up for it

Fridays workout

well in lieu of a workout i hiked up and down this huge hill with nathen to get firewood. we did like 2 trips so i was feeling it that night

Walking

Last night Nathen and I walked for about 30 minutes. I can't beleive how out of shape I have let myself become. Well no more. I'm going to get healthy and see if I can donate a kidney to my dad.

Exercise

I worked out doing jumps like I was jumping rope, and stretching. I'm really going to take it easy so I can lose the weight and feel better without getting hurt.
I am so glad my doctor gave me albuterol tablets, I am breathing much better.

A New Day

Today on April 8, 2009 Nathen and I are going to start working out. I'm going to do different cardio at home, then when he gets home we are going for a walk after dinner.